Brutally Honest

So I have not written in a long time. But there is a time when writing seems to be the only thing to do and as my title suggests, I am going for it...putting it all on the table...insert phrase here.

I am dating this fantastic boy. We have been dating for nearly two years, which is insanity in my mind. But there is this truth about relationships that I have recently acquired: RELATIONSHIPS ARE FREAKISHLY HARD!!!! We are at the stage when it is comfortable. The fireworks are still there at times, but they are not constant. I do not look at him with overwhelming emotion every five minutes and songs do not cause me to weep because I miss him so much. And all of the above totally freak me out. This is my first relationship and as such, I really have no idea what to expect. How do I calm down? How do I accept this new stage? At many times, I am fine. We laugh and carry on and have the best times. But at other times, I find myself wondering if something is wrong with me. Or even worse, wrong with us. Am I crazy?